BACK TO SCHOOL

5 minutes to class after a long break of Medical and Hari Raya leaves... Alhamdullilah E-an did not cry this morning, he was very excited to see his friends.  Before I reached office, a friend called and she wanted to see me once I reached office.  Alhamdullilah, she wants to treat me for lunch.  Looking forward for more good news... ngeeeeeee...

SYAWALRIAH

I was born in Syawal...my parents wanted to name me Syawalriah.  Jokingly I told my family, I would want them to call me Sally :).  After consulting an Ustaz, I was given a lovely name, Nurul Ain Binti Md. Zulkifly. Not so sure what does Syawalriah mean or does it carry any meaning, but Nurul Ain means cahaya mata...wink wink.

My raya preparation this year started very early compared to before, but a bigfoot I am, still looking for a pair of shoes.Today is my very last day, I believe the shoes that is meant for me is out there,Insya Allah.  French soles, I am still eyeing you.

I was so shocked looking at the quatity of E-an's baju raya that he started wearing them from yesterday.  Thank you all for the gifts.  Whenever we say baju raya, kasut raya, kuih raya...he would say baju rayyan, kasut rayyan... he thinks that raya=rayyan... anak... anak...

Han is all set for raya...new hairstyle...he wanted the Fahrin Ahmad look.    Not so sure whether he is a fan of Fahrin... hehe.  Yesterday when I was going through some pictures and Fahrin's was one of it, E-an said daddy...he thought Fahrin=daddy...and of course Han was happy...remember, children at his age do not lie...hahahaha...

Well... my principles with both of them is very easy...If you are happy, I am happy...with limitations of course...

I am stopping here with SELAMAT HARI RAYA...MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN...muahs muahs...Assalammualaikum...

MISCARRIAGE

I have been wanting to write here, but was saving it for a good news which was supposed to be finalized by this week.  Sadly, it did not happen and here I am sharing the most valuable experience in this holy month of Ramadhan.  I was confirmed pregnant about 2 months ago and my check up for this week was to confirm my baby's heartbeat, but sadly there was none.  I went to 2 doctors and confirmed that the baby stopped developing last week, 7th week. We could see the baby without heartbeat and sadly shrunk.

I have so many things to express,but so little words to describe.  Not a fan of tears, but I cried mostly to respond to my biological needs... at least that is what I have been telling myself.  Thank you, Han for always being there for me.  I know you are frustrated although you do not express it, and still THANK YOU for the pregnancy gift.

Redha... Dr. Kamsiah from An-Nur Bangi explained throughly and it has made both, Han and I understood the whole process.  Nobody wants to be in this situation and I hope nobody would, but Allah knows best.  We believe good things awaits us.

This morning I did the D&C in Ipoh and praying that it would be the first and the last.  I have heard of it from so many friends and never thought I was adding to the statistics.........

Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak and Thank you very much to all wishes and prayers...